The Life We Never Had

Alex Idell

Lyrics

I knew the road was ending
Long before the final mile
I could hear goodbye between us
Beneath that tired smile

Still I stayed there beside you
Like staying could change time
Like two people holding tighter
Could make a wrong road feel right

I knew the sound of your footsteps
I knew the weight of your hand
I knew the way when you went quiet
that nobody else could understand

I knew the dreams you whispered
When the whole damn world went black
And maybe that’s what hurts the most
knowing there ain’t no going back

So goodbye to the life we never had
Goodbye to the good and the bad
Goodbye to the house, the years, the plans
To growing old and holding hands

Goodbye to who I was with you
To everything I thought we’d do
I didn’t only lose your love
I lost the life we were dreaming of

There are nights I almost call you
Just to hear you say my name
Then I remember time keeps moving
Because nothing stays the same

I don’t hate you for leaving
I don’t blame us anymore
Some people are meant to change us
Not walk through our every door

But I still see you laughing
In rooms that don’t exist
Still feel a thousand little things
I never thought I’d miss

Coffee sitting beside you
Your hair across your face
Funny how somebody leaves
But the smallest things remain

So goodbye to the life we never had
Goodbye to the good and the bad
Goodbye to the house, the years, the plans
To growing old and holding hands

Goodbye to who I was with you
To everything I thought we’d do
I didn’t only lose your love
I lost the life we were dreaming of

I hope you smile at what was real
Instead of what we never had
And if someday you remember me
I hope it doesn’t make you sad

Because I loved you when it mattered
And I loved you through the rain
And some loves don’t get forever
But our love was worth the pain

So goodbye, my almost always
Goodbye, my might-have-been
If I had another life to live
I’d probably let you in again

Goodbye to the life we never had
To every photograph inside my head
You were more than someone I loved
You were where my future led

And now I have to build another
See my life from a different view
But somewhere down the road
I’ll always, I’ll always think of you